Johnny, one of your lines mentions the word normal, I just wondered what normal is.
Yep, I thought quite a bit before using that word but felt it appropriate as it really refers to whatever we each feel is usual, by comparison to our past.
Although my definition of normal will be a world away from others and has...through this rather cathartic process...adjusted itself over the last 6 years...I like to think I'm healthier for it.
Nowadays all my disposable income is spent on savings, and family related stuff...mostly home related. I still make exceptions but even they are adjusted. Where I used to spend Genuinley daft amounts of cash on a flash car, I now invest a smaller fortune on a flash bike...and save about £60k! in the process. Thing is, nowadays when I do spend money on me, I do so more as a reward or from a sense of having earned it...not out of a feeling of entitlement.
By the way, thoughts of a flash bike have already been sacrificed at the alter of the great tax bill.
For now.