Tea? (Part 2)

[Arch]

Really fecked off with myself.

I tried to make a wooden stand for a ball of string and couldn't do it. couldn't make it work and couldn't remember how to use the tools properly. It's a complete mess, I am so pissed off.
I've had enough.

Walk away. Forget about it for a bit.

It'll sort itself out.

 

[coffeejo]

Have a and a nice and the last bikits in the tin.

Then take a deep breath, count to ten and remind yourself that as messed up as it might be, it's still better than anything that potsy would have done.

 

[Speicher]

You were feeling a bit better recently? Did you have a busy morning, and then drive to Hebden Bridge? I suggest you sit on the sofa, ask someone to make you a drink and relax.

And have a

from me.

 

[Night Train]

Sorry. Just really frustrated.
I have been feeling better, physically, without the meds. I guess I was really hoping that as my body was better and my mind was less fuzzy I might have got some of my lost memories and abilities back. I haven't.

It's not that I have had a long or hard day, but that I think I can see what I am supposed to be able to do and yet still not be able to do it, nor work out what is wrong, and just knowing that I am missing some knowledge and comprehension of what I am doing.

It's like waking up one day being completely unable to ride a bike, you can see how it supposed to work but beyond scooting along a bit, aimlessly, in the saddle there is no ability to ride it.

I just want my brain back.

 

[Speicher]

I am no expert on these things, but I think it takes time to re-establish the pathways in the brain that connect up our thoughts.

I also think that recovering from any sort of illness takes time. I suggest you look back over the last two weeks, and think how much better you feel now, compared with two weeks ago.

I am sorry I cannot say anything more helpful than that.

 

[Night Train]

Thank you, Speicher. It is just so frustrating and I think I just got my hopes up as I had been thinking of all the things I could be doing. It just got to me a bit today. I usually do everything I can to stay positive and up beat but sometimes it is just too much effort to keep that up against the feeling of failure when things don't work out as I had hoped.

 

[potsy]

Morning, hope you are feeling more positive today NT, hard to imagine what it must be like for you.
I think the wol has a point about being patient, and not expecting too much too soon, as frustrating as that must be.

Awake early for me on a Sunday, might take the oppurtunity and have a little ride out to the park soon, need to test out the Secteur after fitting a new gear cable last week, need it right for the audax on Saturday

and a bowl of Special K

 

[Night Train]

Morning, hope you are feeling more positive today NT, hard to imagine what it must be like for you.
I think the wol has a point about being patient, and not expecting too much too soon, as frustrating as that must be.

Cheers Potsy, still frustrated and upset but I have been back in the workshop to have another go at it.
It has been nearly a year since I signed off sick and no idea how long before hand I was ill. I guess I just want to be able to be back doing the one craft/trade, out of all those I have gained, that I chose to do and loved doing.

I was thinking last night that at 45 I still have 20-25 years before I get the chance to consider retirement so I could look at a new career instead. Blacksmithing maybe?

Awake early for me on a Sunday, might take the oppurtunity and have a little ride out to the park soon, need to test out the Secteur after fitting a new gear cable last week, need it right for the audax on Saturday

Isn't that a thing for cutting back plants?

 

[Arch]

I was thinking last night that at 45 I still have 20-25 years before I get the chance to consider retirement so I could look at a new career instead. Blacksmithing maybe?

I bet you'd be good at that too! You'll need an assistant to pump your bellows...

But don't give up on the wood just yet. I'm sure you can relearn the bits that have escaped - like putting a few pieces back into a jigsaw puzzle.

 

[fossyant]

NT, have you thought about an Expert Patient Course ? ~Just done 6 weeks on it and it's helped me deal with the permanent nerve damage I've got in my neck - I'm on meds again for it, and these seem relatively OK, they help me sleep, but it's a bugger getting out of bed in the morning. The course is run by volunteers, but it gives you pointers about how to manage any condition.

I'm sat here, having already eaten an omelette, 1 large tea and a large coffee, and I might go for another. Got 2 spare lights on charge contemplating going out in this drizzle - was going to test out the new saddle, but as that's on the best bike, I can't decide to take either the Ribble (no mudguards) or the commuter fixed ? Wife is out at the gym so can't go out yet anyway.

Visibility is rubbish out there.

 

[coffeejo]

here. Is there ?

 

[Arch]

here. Is there ?

There can be, that's a good idea.

It's an afternoon for staying put, drinking tea and being a bit mindless and lazy. All grey and drizzly.

 

[Night Train]

NT, have you thought about an Expert Patient Course ? ~Just done 6 weeks on it and it's helped me deal with the permanent nerve damage I've got in my neck - I'm on meds again for it, and these seem relatively OK, they help me sleep, but it's a bugger getting out of bed in the morning. The course is run by volunteers, but it gives you pointers about how to manage any condition.

Not heard of that but I am now on an Arts on Prescription course for 6 months in the hope that it will help rebuild my artistic creativity and confidence. I am feeling quite positive about that on the basis that even if I can't regain my wood skills and knowledge I can apply the creativity to another outlet.

I have been looking for a sheet metal work course. I fancy an old school coach work type of thing where I can learn to shape sheets of aluminium over a 1930 car body, as opposed to making flue ducting. Not sure my neighbours would be very happy if I brought home homework though!

 

[fossyant]

Sounds good that NT !

We'll kettle on - went out about 12:30 in the drizzle for a quick 10 miler - bit lumpy, and certainly needed my lights. Quite a few other nutters out too. Kit in the washer, and bike now washed and drip drying before I hang it up on the wall. Where was that tea ?

 

[potsy]

Did a quick ride to Tatton and back, just started to drizzle as I was nearly home.
Then went back out on the CX to the river, so done 24+ miles altogether.

Ready for a bacon butty and