I had to take my little chap for his last trip to the vet in early December, and we're still really missing him. We went to our local Dogs Trust centre to hand over his unopened food and treats, and had a look at the dogs awaiting re-homing whilst we were there. I found it very difficult myself. Whilst we might well take another dog into our home in the future, I can't do it just yet. We'd shared our homes with Muffin for 14 years and we both still think of him and miss him every day. If we do take on another dog, he or she will never be a replacement for Muffin, but will be a new and different friend. I share your pain, and wish you well for the future.