Thanks all for your kind wishes. It does help just to be able to read them.
My wife and I have been out for a few hours. It's silly but I don't want to be here, because Titi's not here. So I've just been out and sat by his grave. I had to. I wanted to talk to him, wished I could hear him growl at me one more time. It hurts like hell. It really does. Yes, more than when some family members have died... because I didn't really know them. Titi was part of my life everyday.
I really don't know how to deal with this. I have talked and talked with my wife until it feels like there's nothing left to say. So I start again. I thought talking helped but I seem to be going nowhere. I'm tired, I know. Tired and emotional. I only got about 2 hours sleep last night. And it's been a stressful 10 days. So I'm probably emotionally drained, all off balance. I'll get an early night. I'm riding tomorrow, hopefully that'll help. Thanks again all.