Accy cyclist
Legendary Member
- Location
- The hills of Accrington
I haven't been on my bike since i was knocked off 12 days ago. I keep making excuses like i haven't got a new helmet yet or my knee wont be right yet to put pressure on,but the real reason is fear of it happening again. I keep thinking about that moment when boy racer didn't give a toss about me and cut right across my path as i approached him. I imagine how it would've affected my wife and daughter if i'd have been killed or brain damaged because of him. I imagine that i died that evening and that i'm now 6ft under while boy racer drives around like a looney as before, awaiting his court case charged with driving without due care and attention. All thoughts are going through my mind! When the sun is shining it's bad for me as i see the fair weather cyclists out there and think to myself you've been out on days when your water bottle has frozen over,or your fingers were that numb with the cold you couldn't put the key in the door when you got home. I've earned the right to cycle in the sun as much as anyone yet i can't do it! How will i go on when i see that impatient driver revving thinking " can i make it before he passes" when turning right across my path,or the idiot up my backside trying their damnedest to overtake me because they have to get to those traffic lights before me! Have any of you been in a similar situation and how did you cope? Do you know of anyone who's been knocked off and never ridden again?
I'm getting by with using my old exercise bike in the backyard/garden on warm days. It's nowhere the same as the thrill of road riding but at least i can relax and not have that fear of being hit again. I'm also going "powerwalking",something i've always done in between bike rides. I'm trying to maintain my level of fitness for if/when i get back in the saddle. How long it'll take i don't know though!
I'm getting by with using my old exercise bike in the backyard/garden on warm days. It's nowhere the same as the thrill of road riding but at least i can relax and not have that fear of being hit again. I'm also going "powerwalking",something i've always done in between bike rides. I'm trying to maintain my level of fitness for if/when i get back in the saddle. How long it'll take i don't know though!