Hi AFS
Glad to hear you're on the up again, away for a few days so missed this one.
I've posted in the Ping fellow depressives thread in Health a few times- I completely understand when the darkness descends how it can really affect the mind, energy and the way of feeling and seeing. I'm still in the process of going through mine too, it's been around since my teen years (possibly earlier) and it comes and goes in easy ways and tough ways that I find harder to handle. I just need to remember that when it happens not to be too tough on myself and just to be and to process all the feelings and emotions. Lots of people on here understand and have been a really great help (you all know who you are
) so post up if you need to.
You'll get through it and win and survive with a punching fist in the air, can't say how or when but you're strong and you've beaten it enough times.