Sat here now. Can't go out and fly and it's doing my head in. A few years ago I wrecked both cruciates and went through a year of pain. The first diagnosis was to 'go home and put your feet up' for 3 months. Getting back to near my previous level took four more years, and I've been enjoying things since. The only proviso was a warning that patellar bursitis would probably be my new regular guest. I never expected to do rides to Holmfirth or to do the 30 mile circular round Barnsley, Wombwell, Cortonwood & Elsecar. It's been ace. Four weeks ago the familiar sting came back. I can't ride now. Knees sting all the time, mainly below the knee. I can see that my tracking is off. The last relapse took 3 months to clear. So I'm doing angled stepdowns, quad, calf and hamstring stretches, keeping off the bike and trying to ignore the burning 24 hours a day. I can't take anti-inflammatories so am having plenty of tomatoes and other fruits and drinking a lot (not that type!). The hardest part is the psychology. I'm 49, with a history of depression and dreading 50 as if it's end of life, and dreading the day I can't ride again. I don't think I'm really after answers as I've been through this twice before. I think I'm just sharing the grief and getting it off my chest. I'm hoping this will clear as before as winter riding up here is stunning! I can't give up.