Post-Christmas I'm onto my third module of the beginner lessons.
We're now doing what feels like quite a complex sequence of moves which once more I'm struggling to get my head around and trying to practice at home just so that I can get the progression right if the execution remains lacking.
Inevitably it's been tougher to keep at it over the winter due to the weather - on top of all the usual obstacles and complaints - while my dodgy shoulder continues to make pressups difficult (I'm having to resort to using my knees sometimes to reduce the load) and my feet have been painful thanks to suspected neuropathy from getting bloody cold on the commute / in the office.
Approching the end of the beginner's course the next stage has been discussed. It's a year's commitment (well, with three months notice period which seems a bit excessive tbh) and I have the choice of paying more (double the monthly cost of the beginnier course) to do both TKD and kickboxing up to four nights per week, or a bit less for just one discipline for two nights per week.
While I'm tight and the pricing is loaded towards "quantity discount" realistically I know I'd rarely if ever manage four classes a week due to other commitments and necessary recovery times. On top of that I'm mindful that I'm maybe less adept at picking up new techniques than others and don't want to overwhelm myself with too much to learn, so one discipline it is. While some elements of TKD appeal (such as the tradition and ritual) I think I prefer the kickboxing overall - perhaps because it seems a little less technically demanding and more real-world relevant / practical. Plus I look better in black
On top of this, even the cheaper subscription is more than I've paid for the beginner course and I'm wary of committing to the outlay. In terms of non-essentials this would be by far my largest regular spend. There's also the need for a fair chunk to be spent up-front on protective gear (gloves, head guard, shin pads etc) - my biggest issue with which would be transportation on the bike as I fear I might struggle to get everything in the panniers (and even if I can it will likely grenade the now customary post-class trip to the supermarket) and I'm determined not to take the car.
Another potential issue with the progression would be the need to change my evenings of attendance to suit the the timetable of my chosen discipline. In this regard the kickboxing is a bit better but will require me to move from Mon & Thu to Tue & Thu; possibly problematic as it reduces recovery time between classes and potentially impinges on the occasional Tuesday night pub visit.... although providing I'm not too shafted I could always toddle back up the hill to the pub afterwards. Tuesdays are also a bit of a pain as the beginner classes are later - leaving a very inconvenient dead zone between the end of work and the class; where it's not really worth going home but a fair bit of time to kill otherwise.
So.... I'm currently trying to take a step back and assess how I want to go; what I've achieved so far, how I've progressed, what I might achieve in future and whether this is good value or at least a justifiable spend relative to my financial situation.
While of course I don't nec. need to follow the course all the way to black belt this is projected at seven years which is a lot of time, money and commitment.. the counter to that being that it's really only an hour and a half of my time twice a week were I to travel straight there and back.
The beginner's course was an easy sell as the cost was manageable and I always had the get out of "just dipping my toe in the water"; now I need to make a decision as to whether I can stomach the greater commitment...
I appreciate this probably isn't a very interesting read but the ability to write it all down has some value so I'm thankful for that
Oh, also we have had a little taster of stuff beyond the form-in-isolation practiced in the beginner classes with a bit of one-on-one sparring. This was a lot more intense and somewhat intimidating as you're working with someone else (although everyone is very nice) and a lot more demanding as the drills have your partner randomly deciding what they want you to do by the commands they give and where the place the pads so it requires a quick mental response as well as the appropriate physical co-ordination..
Unsurprisingly I was, and remain bloody awful at this - easily bamboozled by what's demanded of me while my technique falls to pieces in the face of this; however of course this should all get better with practice and it feels like you're actually cultivating some worthwhile / practical skill since it introduces the need for accurate placement of hands and feet in response to a somewhat unpredictable situation.
Realistically I think I've had some value from what I've done so far and like everything else in life need to not let my looming anxiety allow me to bail at the first sniff of the potential for future things to be anything less than perfect. I suppose I'd better just commit and see how it goes..