Brave of you to make this post.
May I ask if you have thought about why you failed to see the cyclist and how you could avoid such a thing happening again? The reason I ask is because it is indeed an event that I fear when driving and your opinion could be useful both to cyclists and other drivers.
I think I do need to take this up, and I hope no one takes my response in the wrong way - From here on out, I'm not trying to apportion any blame on the cyclist, I already admit full responsibility - I was in the wrong!
Firstly I'll say I have been thinking of nothing all day. If you think 'big bad motorist knocks me off my bike then pisses off and calmly gets on with his life" you are wrong. This incident is having nothing but a negative impact on my life. Now whether or not the impact on my life is a bad as the impact on the unfortunate cyclist life or not I will probably never know. But please note it really is eating a way at me to think I might have seriously hurt him in any way - be it physical, financial, emotional or whatever.
What could I have done differently? Really not a great deal. If I had looked around once more he would have been past me and the accident would never have happened. But how much do you differ at junctions before moving off? At what point are you being over cautious? I don't know.
The only thing that would have made a real difference is if the cyclist had been riding his bike properly. Again please don't read that sentence the wrong way. He was doing what 99.9% of cyclists, including my self, do. He was riding in the gutter. I never truly appreciated the advice until know but if it saves even one life through someone reading this then some good has come of the situation.
The answer to this question is, as a cyclist, to hold your lane position. Cycle in the center of your lane. Cycle in the one place where no motorist can possibly fail to see, right where they are going to be looking for other viachles. If some driver is shouting at you to get out the way it means he as seen you and will not run you down. Someone pulling out from a junction, as I was this morning, will be looking straight at you and would have no excuse.
Also, If he'd been nearer the center of the lane I wouldn't have it him. My car would have had the extra stopping distance needed. A near miss, we both would have been shock up, but no damage would have happened.
As for this morning. All I can now say is it must have been fated to happen. What if's? What if I'd de-iced my car for longer rather than using the scraper? What if I'd ironed my clothed the night before and left of earlier at my usual time? What if?