Risex4
Dropped by the autobus
- Location
- The Green/Gray Hills Of Debunshire
Hmm.
I told myself at somepoint last week that 1st of March I was going to quit my 20+ a day habbit.
Im not sure why I told myself this, it was just time for one of those random, half-arsed attempts smokers enter into with no real planning, thought or conviction which are ultimately doomed to fail. It was just a thought, a daydream almost. I am the archetypal said smoker, I've lost count of the number of times I've given up, I've tried it all, it never stuck. I think midway through day two was my record before I succombed to various degrees of craving.
So Friday rolled around and I went about my business, I did intentionally skip the first shop visit of the day, but I didnt really have any belief that I'd make it to tea time.
And yet, here I am 6 days later, not having smoked and with what I can describe at worse as split-second pangs every few hours or so which literally go again before I register they were a craving. Havent really thought about one - or in truth on the odd occassion I have its been more along the lines of "Don't I usually want a cigeratte right about now?" rather than an outright craving for one, it hasnt crossed my mind to buy a pack when I pop into the shop for the newspaper. It didnt bother me when I passed the local 14 year olds fresh out of school puffing away this afternoon.
Not that I am complaining you understand, but after so many years of trying, to do it on a whim so casually now is actually rather unsettling.
I told myself at somepoint last week that 1st of March I was going to quit my 20+ a day habbit.
Im not sure why I told myself this, it was just time for one of those random, half-arsed attempts smokers enter into with no real planning, thought or conviction which are ultimately doomed to fail. It was just a thought, a daydream almost. I am the archetypal said smoker, I've lost count of the number of times I've given up, I've tried it all, it never stuck. I think midway through day two was my record before I succombed to various degrees of craving.
So Friday rolled around and I went about my business, I did intentionally skip the first shop visit of the day, but I didnt really have any belief that I'd make it to tea time.
And yet, here I am 6 days later, not having smoked and with what I can describe at worse as split-second pangs every few hours or so which literally go again before I register they were a craving. Havent really thought about one - or in truth on the odd occassion I have its been more along the lines of "Don't I usually want a cigeratte right about now?" rather than an outright craving for one, it hasnt crossed my mind to buy a pack when I pop into the shop for the newspaper. It didnt bother me when I passed the local 14 year olds fresh out of school puffing away this afternoon.
Not that I am complaining you understand, but after so many years of trying, to do it on a whim so casually now is actually rather unsettling.