G-Zero
Guru
- Location
- Kirkcudbright, SW Scotland
And just the smell of it on other people makes me both heave and cringe with embarrassment at having put my friends through that for so many years![]()
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And just the smell of it on other people makes me both heave and cringe with embarrassment at having put my friends through that for so many years![]()
Ten a day, and I enjoy every one.
Smoked in the womb and then passive smoked until I started myself @ 11, on 20 a day by 16. At age 20 in an effort to cut down I started rolling my own. That was 1982.
Gave up in 1999 for eight months but always had in the back iof my mind that I was missing something. A trip to Cuba and the availability of fancy cigars combined with the will power disolving effect of a free bar got me back on nicotine.
I read Alan Carr's book a few times over the decades so knew I had access to the key - I just never used it.
The death of my parents to cancer - my mum to lung cancer after 45 years of 20-40 a day didn't have any effect. I kept smoking, but I always only ever bought the smallest pack of rolling baccy - constantly fooling myself that I might give up and didn't want to have to throw any away... I've fished it out of manky bins before. It never seemed to be the right time -or rather I kept telling myself that. Until two or three days after my friend topped himself, and it crossed my mind that there was no worse time than this - and therefore no better time.
Coming up for two years in August. I have no desire to smoke whatsoever. I smoked more than enough already.
Gave up alcohol the following New Year - 'for a year', just to prove to myself that I could do it. I was a very heavy drinker. A year passed and I have no desire to go back on that either.
I'm sure that's the key - removing the desire.
I started smoking baccy because of the weed. People say it's a gateway drug and by gum it is, just not to the drugs they think.