This mortality thing.

[SpokeyDokey]

How do I deal with it?

I implemented Project 10 Good Summers the outcomes of which are/will be at least 10 really memorable, for good reasons, summers between my 50th birthday, nearly five years ago, and my going gaga or dying or hitting 70. No more "I wish I'd tried...." and much more "I'm glad I tried...."

It has meant cycling from London to John O'Groats with The Fridays to packing my job in and becoming self-employed. It has meant running a half-marathon or five. It has meant reffing a Sussex Div 1 Rugby match. It means I got to see my beautiful and bright daughter graduate. It means I bought TLH the eternity ring she has wanted for 30 years and with debt-free cash. Still got to cycle the Western Isles. Still got to see the Grand Canyon on/from a Harley. Still got to go to Iceland and see the Northern Lights and the Midnight Sun. Still got to learn to sail and race a boat. &c.

Sometimes I feel sad, and a little afraid, when I think about what I wont live to see and do. About the world carryng on without me. Then I thank God for my two amazing children, and for the life I've had thus far, which surpasses my youthful expectation by so much I still have to pinch myself at how lucky I am.

(In a bit I've to get dressed to fly to Stockholm for work. For the day. It will be a tough day in the office with some hard talking to be done. But hell, me, a kid from a pretty crappy council estate in Crawley New Town, living and working in Copenhagen/Stockholm. Who even knew? My life is so, so much better than I thought it could be.)

I like that. (Project 10 Good Summers)

 

[I like Skol]

I haven't read the whole thread, life's too short!

Me, I'm going to live forever.......

 

[Motobecane]

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You just made a typo that's all (morality rather than mortality). It could catch on as a slogan although I'm not sure what it might mean!

 

[arch684]

You just made a typo that's all (morality rather than mortality). It could catch on as a slogan although I'm not sure what it might mean!

Or 5hit at spelling

 

[colly]

Sounds awful and somehow illuminating.

can you share what happened or is it a bit too personal...feel free to say the latter, I'm just being nosey?

No it doesn't bother me, in fact I don't even think about it much. At all really, it was just the post that brought it to mind.
I was swimming and a rip current carried me off. One minute I was around 20 yards from the beach, I took a few strokes away from the beach and looked back..........the beach was miles away. Well probably 100 yards but it looked like miles. No one about. I was a bit panicked so I started to swim back but it was obvious I was getting further and further away from land.
The odd thing is it was so low key. No warning, no fuss, it just happened. Some while later it was getting dark and I was shivering like a jelly because of the cold and by this time I thought I was done for. Then, it seemed to me, out of the blue a small boat came puttering passed. I didn't hear it until the last moment.
They were just passing too so if they hadn't spotted me that would have been it. 15 mins later they were dropping me back on the beach where I had come from.
I didn't tell Mrs Colly about it for ages though. Didn't want to worry her ( or get her hopes up )

I am more careful in the sea now.