@jamma. Like
@shouldbeinbed, I have had no dealings with you and have not read any of your other posts. You have no "history" with me.
I was intrigued by the title of your thread so I came in and had a read. You repeatedly ask for "help" but pointedly refuse to listen or heed advice that shows an amazing amount of consensus amongst a broad church of cyclists of all ages and abilities. If you have a history of doing this in other threads, then I'm sorry,
that is taking the p*ss in my book.
ETA: And from what I can see, the comments that you are feeling sensitive about are not personal or insulting, but driven by impatience and frustration that the answers you seek are all here so why aren't you using them already?