To be honest I recognise a bit of myself in the op, but I am also confused about myself
My Grandparents Rode and raced. My parents too, my brother still races, so i am from a cycling family.
I was transported in a cycle sidecar for my first year. Dad was a factory worker in those days.
I work in the city, have a nice house and have recently upgraded my bike to a nice carbon bike (albeit second hand) which I dont get out on enough but love getting bits for. I have lidl , Aldi and castelli gear. Plus a set of golf clubs , an MTB and two motorbikes , all of which i dont use enough either....
I do comment to Mrs FS about other cyclists we see, primarily " he/she is going well/ working hard" or "that saddles too low".
It takes all sorts .....