Hi Vikeonabike,
I'm very sorry to hear that you are suffering from depression. It is a very unpleasant condition and you have my full sympathy.
As you see from the other posts, it is quite a common occurrence and people suffer in various degrees, from light to heavy depression.
When we suffer from depression we seem to lose the ability of rational thought and our ability to reason properly is compromised.
We find ourselves in a vicious circle with, seemingly, no way out of the situation.
In the majority of cases, the depression will lift of its own accord but, occasionally we become entrenched and can find no way out.
I would like you to try something that helped me out of a particularly nasty bout of depression a few years back that a nice neighbour showed me.
I want you to play a little game.
Pick a time when you're not doing anything in particular. At that time I want you to pretend that, at that moment, you are not suffering from depression.That everything is normal. Just pretend.
You stated that you want to ride. OK. Just pretend, just for a while, that you are in a normal state of mind. You want to ride so, get your bike out and cycle down the road. Nowhere in particular. Just round the block? A couple of miles down the road? It doesn't matter. After all its only pretend. You can go back to being depressed afterwards if you like. But , right now, it's just a game so have a bit of fun.
Go on try it out. Have a go. You've got nothing to lose. Right?
Perhaps later on you can play that game again. You only have to pick a time.
Just for a little while, you will experience what it is like not to be depressed. The more you play the game, the less time you will have to be depressed.
Before you know it you will be playing the game all the time and you can carry on being a happy person.
Don't expect anything. Don't have expectations. Just play the game. Once today. Again tomorrow. A few times next week. Don't think about it. Pick a time and play the game. It's just pretend anyway. Just a bit of fun.
Enjoy.
I did.