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Fab Foodie
hanging-on in quiet desperation ...
Col
Sorry to hear of all the bad news. Pray that things get better...virtual tea and sympathy from here...
Sorry to hear of all the bad news. Pray that things get better...virtual tea and sympathy from here...
OP
OP
col
Legendary Member
Thanks for that,FF,ON the rocks please S,cheers.
I think its time that will do the trick,but not enough has passed yet.I worry about marie taking it badly,but i think she is thinking the same thing for me.So we will just have to be there for each other,and her dad,who i worry it hasnt sunk in yet.
I think its time that will do the trick,but not enough has passed yet.I worry about marie taking it badly,but i think she is thinking the same thing for me.So we will just have to be there for each other,and her dad,who i worry it hasnt sunk in yet.
tdr1nka
Taking the biscuit
My best to you and the Family Col.
I felt I should stand up and be counted.
I had a breakdown and suicide attempt in 1999 caused by nervous exhaustion brought on by work, home life and two violent incidents in three months when out on my bike.
I lost my marbles, my girlfriend, my job and my home.
Worst of all I gave up cycling, as I thought then, forever.
I was initially prescribed Citalopram and being depressed I just took the pills without reading the 'instructions' and was drinking to boot.
It was during the fortnight of 'the pills settling in' that I tried to end it all.
Had I read the 'instructions' I would have known that my symptoms could get markedly worse just from taking the tablets, let alone drinking on top.
So I carried on with the pills and dropped the booze, a move I seldom regret. I had CBT thru the Maudsley clinics and a great deal of support from MIND and The Samaritans, it has been a crazy hell journey of absurd proportions that I've only started seeing an end to.
For the last 5 years I have been on 40mg Citalopram and 1gm Lithium daily and this seems to keep me 'in check'. I don't get so low anymore but then my enthusiasm doesn't rise too much either. In many ways I am very lucky and I have a wonderful partner, 3 beautiful daughters and can say that I am happier now than I thought I was before the breakdown.
Best of all I have started cycling again.
This has been the first year where I have used the bike or trike near daily.
The attacks I suffered in 1999 had given me symptoms of PTSD(post traumatic stress disorder)and when I started going for short quiet rides to test my nerves I would find it hard not to attack every car or ped that even remotely threatened my wellbeing.
A day I'll never forget, a car very nearly had me off with a left hook only to be doing a U-turn and wanting to go the other way, I saw the red mist and was stood in front of the car bike held aloft and threatening to put it thru the windscreen unless the driver acknowledged me.
As the mist cleared I saw Firemen in an engine behind the car waving wildly and mouthing, 'don't do it!', pointing at the car making w*nker signs and laughing. This broke the spell and I went on my way to thumbs up from the Fire Crew and an interesting example to give my Shrink, who I was on my way to see, of how my emotional state had been coping.
The main things to remember are that you need never be alone in your depression, talking really helps and, take it from me, there is no such thing as normal.
T x
I felt I should stand up and be counted.
I had a breakdown and suicide attempt in 1999 caused by nervous exhaustion brought on by work, home life and two violent incidents in three months when out on my bike.
I lost my marbles, my girlfriend, my job and my home.
Worst of all I gave up cycling, as I thought then, forever.
I was initially prescribed Citalopram and being depressed I just took the pills without reading the 'instructions' and was drinking to boot.
It was during the fortnight of 'the pills settling in' that I tried to end it all.
Had I read the 'instructions' I would have known that my symptoms could get markedly worse just from taking the tablets, let alone drinking on top.
So I carried on with the pills and dropped the booze, a move I seldom regret. I had CBT thru the Maudsley clinics and a great deal of support from MIND and The Samaritans, it has been a crazy hell journey of absurd proportions that I've only started seeing an end to.
For the last 5 years I have been on 40mg Citalopram and 1gm Lithium daily and this seems to keep me 'in check'. I don't get so low anymore but then my enthusiasm doesn't rise too much either. In many ways I am very lucky and I have a wonderful partner, 3 beautiful daughters and can say that I am happier now than I thought I was before the breakdown.
Best of all I have started cycling again.
This has been the first year where I have used the bike or trike near daily.
The attacks I suffered in 1999 had given me symptoms of PTSD(post traumatic stress disorder)and when I started going for short quiet rides to test my nerves I would find it hard not to attack every car or ped that even remotely threatened my wellbeing.
A day I'll never forget, a car very nearly had me off with a left hook only to be doing a U-turn and wanting to go the other way, I saw the red mist and was stood in front of the car bike held aloft and threatening to put it thru the windscreen unless the driver acknowledged me.
As the mist cleared I saw Firemen in an engine behind the car waving wildly and mouthing, 'don't do it!', pointing at the car making w*nker signs and laughing. This broke the spell and I went on my way to thumbs up from the Fire Crew and an interesting example to give my Shrink, who I was on my way to see, of how my emotional state had been coping.
The main things to remember are that you need never be alone in your depression, talking really helps and, take it from me, there is no such thing as normal.
T x
Cycling Naturalist
Guru
I've had a much better medicine - I've just come back from a week's skiing and feel totally relaxed and stress free.
Cycling Naturalist
Guru
snorri said:I think you are worrying about your post count
I am now - I'm so relaxed that I can't find any posts here that irritate me.
Charlotte_C+ :-)
New Member
It really helps me realise that im not alone from reading everyones posts, as ive suffered from panic attacks, nerves, social anxiety ect for ages, im 21.
ive never taken any meds though, as id be worried about not being able to come off them, & also have felt to embarrassed to go see someone about it
. but i have found that when i do exercise it does really help lift my spirits like you say, its just making yourself get out on the bike in the first place 
P.S Hello again everybody!, its been ages since last visit on here!
as afraid i havnt been commuting on my bike for months!, but really hoping to get back in the sadle again very soon!.
ive never taken any meds though, as id be worried about not being able to come off them, & also have felt to embarrassed to go see someone about it
. but i have found that when i do exercise it does really help lift my spirits like you say, its just making yourself get out on the bike in the first place P.S Hello again everybody!
, its been ages since last visit on here!as afraid i havnt been commuting on my bike for months!, but really hoping to get back in the sadle again very soon!.
Fab Foodie
hanging-on in quiet desperation ...
Charlotte_C+ :-) said:P.S Hello again everybody!
as afraid i havnt been commuting on my bike for months!, but really hoping to get back in the sadle again very soon!.
Helloooo
OP
OP
col
Legendary Member
Charlotte_C+ :-) said:It really helps me realise that im not alone from reading everyones posts, as ive suffered from panic attacks, nerves, social anxiety ect for ages, im 21.
ive never taken any meds though, as id be worried about not being able to come off them, & also have felt to embarrassed to go see someone about it
P.S Hello again everybody!
as afraid i havnt been commuting on my bike for months!, but really hoping to get back in the sadle again very soon!.
Hi charlotte,Hope you had a great christmas,and are having a better new year.
Charlotte_C+ :-)
New Member
Thank you very much Col , hope the same for you to!
, hope the same for you to!
trio25
Über Member
Charlotte_C+ :-) said:ive never taken any meds though, as id be worried about not being able to come off them, & also have felt to embarrassed to go see someone about it
Hi Charlotte. I've found the same exercise really helps, but eventually I just basically collasped and had to seek help. I've been making arrangements to meet people on my bike so I can't back out, otherwise I just don't go out. Everytime I decide to cancel it but I'm always glad when I don't.
trio25
Über Member
Yes I'm good at excuses and this time of year gives loads. At first the minute I mentioned going on a bike ride the OH would bundle me out the dorr before I changed my mind as I'd fogotten how much I enjoyed it.
Have two days with nothing planned though. Think my legs will appreciate the rest after a week playing in the snow in France and 30miles on the road bike yesterday.
Have two days with nothing planned though. Think my legs will appreciate the rest after a week playing in the snow in France and 30miles on the road bike yesterday.