The background to to is that the company I've worked for since2004 was sold at the start of the year. They gave me a new contract which had a small payrise but in every other way worse terms than my original one. It also wiped out my previous employment history so I can't claim redundancy should they want rid of me and despite doing the job for 11years put me back on a probationary period. They've also changed the way we operate to what I feel is less efficient and poorly organised.
Now it's time for my appraisal and I've been given what I feel is a piece of rope to hang myself. I've never had to fill anything like this out before,there are pages of it all asking questions I have no real answer for. I've struggled with depression and loneliness for years, I have reached a point where I just live from day to day, I want to concentrate on my mental health, building social confidence, making friends, getting fitter, losing weight, improving my diet and i have zero interest in my job beyond turning up, doing what I have to do and going home. I'm just bored with, I don't like the way the company is managed since the take over and my only real career objective is to find a different job, preferably in a completely different field. I don't like the company at all either.
So now I have this form asking me where I see myself in five years, have I achieved my objectives for the past six months, what do I think are the good things about working for the company, etc, etc being asked to rate myself on a 1 - 10 scale in dozens of different areas and I just don't know how to answer any of it. I can't can't be truthful as it definitely wouldn't be what they want to hear, yet making up a load of lies to lick the arse of someone I don't like is not something that comes naturally to me so I don't even know how to lie my way through it!
And it just makes me question the pointlessness of something like this as an unhappy employee like me won't tell the truth for fear of repercussions and even if they did, people tend not to like criticism so won't take it and act on it.
Now it's time for my appraisal and I've been given what I feel is a piece of rope to hang myself. I've never had to fill anything like this out before,there are pages of it all asking questions I have no real answer for. I've struggled with depression and loneliness for years, I have reached a point where I just live from day to day, I want to concentrate on my mental health, building social confidence, making friends, getting fitter, losing weight, improving my diet and i have zero interest in my job beyond turning up, doing what I have to do and going home. I'm just bored with, I don't like the way the company is managed since the take over and my only real career objective is to find a different job, preferably in a completely different field. I don't like the company at all either.
So now I have this form asking me where I see myself in five years, have I achieved my objectives for the past six months, what do I think are the good things about working for the company, etc, etc being asked to rate myself on a 1 - 10 scale in dozens of different areas and I just don't know how to answer any of it. I can't can't be truthful as it definitely wouldn't be what they want to hear, yet making up a load of lies to lick the arse of someone I don't like is not something that comes naturally to me so I don't even know how to lie my way through it!
And it just makes me question the pointlessness of something like this as an unhappy employee like me won't tell the truth for fear of repercussions and even if they did, people tend not to like criticism so won't take it and act on it.